Liam,
Monday was your 7th birthday, I can hardly believe it.
Each year when I think of you, I view you as the little baby that I held on Sept. 9th 2012. This year however, I could only seem to view you as the 7 year old boy you would have been today. Wondering what type of birthday party you would be having, what the cool thing is for young boys these days, what type of personality and humor you would be adding to our family. It is really crazy to think about how different things would be with you here.
I was super busy on Monday, more than I usually am on your birthday. At first I thought it was good to keep a 'normal' schedule (especially with the girls) but by the time I got home around 6pm and was able to let the reality of the day sink in, it me. The sadness as we released balloons, had cake (mainly for the girls ;) and sang Happy Birthday, while we wrote in your card. By the end of the night I had this overwhelming feeling like we didn't do enough. Like I didn't give you the time you were due today. Yet, in an effort to be kind to myself I remembered everything we do throughout the year in honor of you, in addition to thinking about and missing you DAILY!! Brad and I have become very involved with No Foot Too Small this year and enjoy getting to honor, celebrate, and remember you at events throughout the year. As well as helping to make a difference in the lives of other families, in honor of you!
I also found this year oddly redundant. It's your birthday and we are 'celebrating' without you. I guess it hit me this year that is how it will be each year, forever. I mean, I know you aren't coming back to us on this year, yet this year I kinda expected to feel different. To have some great epiphany about how what to do on your birthday. Each year on the girls birthday's we do pretty much the same thing; bloody marys, mimosas, doughnuts, gifts, and friends. While it's the same each year it feels different. Friend's kiddos are growing up and changing as well as my own. But each year on your birthday it's more of the same. I don't know why I really didn't like that this year.
I started homeschooling your sister Izzy and already had my first run-in with imparting the wrong information about the Presidents of the United States. I really wish you were here to challenge your momma with 2nd grade math, writing and who knows what else, lol.
Well Liam, I love you and miss you my son!
~Mom
Monday was your 7th birthday, I can hardly believe it.
Each year when I think of you, I view you as the little baby that I held on Sept. 9th 2012. This year however, I could only seem to view you as the 7 year old boy you would have been today. Wondering what type of birthday party you would be having, what the cool thing is for young boys these days, what type of personality and humor you would be adding to our family. It is really crazy to think about how different things would be with you here.
I was super busy on Monday, more than I usually am on your birthday. At first I thought it was good to keep a 'normal' schedule (especially with the girls) but by the time I got home around 6pm and was able to let the reality of the day sink in, it me. The sadness as we released balloons, had cake (mainly for the girls ;) and sang Happy Birthday, while we wrote in your card. By the end of the night I had this overwhelming feeling like we didn't do enough. Like I didn't give you the time you were due today. Yet, in an effort to be kind to myself I remembered everything we do throughout the year in honor of you, in addition to thinking about and missing you DAILY!! Brad and I have become very involved with No Foot Too Small this year and enjoy getting to honor, celebrate, and remember you at events throughout the year. As well as helping to make a difference in the lives of other families, in honor of you!
I also found this year oddly redundant. It's your birthday and we are 'celebrating' without you. I guess it hit me this year that is how it will be each year, forever. I mean, I know you aren't coming back to us on this year, yet this year I kinda expected to feel different. To have some great epiphany about how what to do on your birthday. Each year on the girls birthday's we do pretty much the same thing; bloody marys, mimosas, doughnuts, gifts, and friends. While it's the same each year it feels different. Friend's kiddos are growing up and changing as well as my own. But each year on your birthday it's more of the same. I don't know why I really didn't like that this year.
I started homeschooling your sister Izzy and already had my first run-in with imparting the wrong information about the Presidents of the United States. I really wish you were here to challenge your momma with 2nd grade math, writing and who knows what else, lol.
Well Liam, I love you and miss you my son!
~Mom
Sweet letter to Liam Linds...something different than what you have done on the same day in year's past. Love you ❤
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