Baby #3

I am due in July with baby #3! 

I feel so blessed that we are able to get pregnant without any complications although I am so over pregnancy. Having done a full 9 month pregnancy with Liam, the deliver, postpartum and the whole 9 yard without taking a baby home is a lot. Then getting pregnant 7 months later and doing the whole thing again with Izzy and I am just done. The newance is gone and truthfully, it's just a means to an end for me. Not just the physical toll that pregnancy takes on a women's body, but the whole emotional side of it for us. The countless doctors apps, the amnio (getting poked through the stomach with a giant needle), wondering if baby carries the same mutation I do and if I will need to go on meds, the growth ultra sounds and making sure baby is growing, wondering if I feel them kicking and if everything is ok, and of course...praying to God we take this baby home! 

I am so excited for another baby and a sibling for Izzy but I can't lie, I am not excited right now about being pregnant. I truthfully just want the baby in my arms and to know that I don't have to go through any of this again! That might sound crazy but I just don't know if I have it all in me to do again.